|OH MY F*CKING GAWD SHOES!|
July also came with a big set of challenges for me...mainly, adjusting to life in Canada again, being in my childhood house with all of its bittersweet memories,seeing how my mom has surrounded herself with more things than any person ever should to keep her emotion packed away, working a job i didnt care about, switching jobs, trying to network myself in the local film industry here, Missing Europe,realizing old friendships have been outgrown, and living with my significant other for the first time in my life. (which is wonderful don't get me wrong, but everyone knows it is a challenge especially the first time you do it).
Slowly, i found i was just switching myself onto autopilot and not really taking a look at any of my emotions or what i needed to do to keep myself satisfied...bad move miss pisces. I wound up in a serious funk and couldnt seem to pull myslef out of it.,I had no space to myself to go and decompress .. What ened up happening was me breaking down in front of my very supportive boyfriend, who, being the gemini that he is, had a little trouble grasping the fact that I didnt really have any logical answers for my feelings. in the end he just accepted and I feel much better today.
|hey baby. lets have kinky nerd sex.|
Also, malls are full of emotional vampires and its diffiicult to work in one. im finding im getting depeleted of energy quite rapidly during shifts if I dont watch myself.HOWEVER it is teaching me a lot and I am getting my life sorted slowly but surely.